如果不是收到由一位来自东马的一封温馨短讯，我忘了这几个月来都好久没和旧同学/同事们联络，原因是为了工作。

工作量越来越繁重、时间越来越不够、身子越来越差劲。原来，忙~~可以是从睡觉、工作和睡觉这样简单计算。我渐渐开始否定我之前所否认的（我的健康亮红灯是工作所致）。

渐渐对目前的工作失去兴趣了，渐渐对这行业不再感到新鲜了，渐渐对我的生存目的产生了疑问了。好想逃离这个繁重的工作、也好想什么都不管、更想有四处流浪的冲动！

突然从电台听到《光》这首歌，那旋律的开始，令我想起一首我曾经喜爱听的歌，里面都是充满鼓励的词句，我开始留意歌词，也开始和这首歌一起唱了起来。原本意志消沉的我，越唱就越提醒自己要继续在这恶劣的时势更加坚持、更加前进！

希望能够挨过这个非常时期，就像这首歌一样，《会一直走直到我走不动，心灰了天黑了找个出口,那道光也许是自己的摸索，把心打开放进光指引我……》

骏雍曰

2006年6月25日

I thought I could get it all done before lunch today and get back to work after that. Unfortunately, the permit was released only at this late afternoon. Thus, I had to apply a whole day leave instead of taking time-off. The weather is not pretty good today. Raining heavily during early morning which caused me a little late to reach my new house.

I shot some photos at the front view of the house as well as the back view. I did it is because I need them for the permit application for the purpose of renovation. Besides, some documents need to be ready for the application such as quit rent, assessment and S&P.

I spent my whole morning in the MBPJ office in filling up the forms, I could not remember well for all the forms but I did remember the Sketch 3B. That’s the plan in draft for kitchen extension. In relation to the Sketch 3B, another application for keeping the material outside the house compound area. The payments detail for the application are as follow:

1. JUALAN BORANG PERMOHANAN/GARIS PANDUAN-MYR 10.00

2. JUALAN PELEKAT KEBENARAN UBAHSUAI BANGUNAN RAJAH KASAR 3B-MYR 10.00

3. BAYARAN PROSES PELAN BANGUNAN RAJAH KASAR 3B-MYR 50.00 4. BAYARAN KEBENARAN UNTUK MELETAK BAHAN BINAAN LUAR KAWASAN RUMAH-MYR 180.00

5. CAGARAN PELAN-PELAN BANGUNAN, GARIS PANDUAN DAN SIJIL KELAYAKAN SEMENTARA BANGUNAN RAJAH KASAR 3B-MYR 350.00 (Refundable only the permit is issued before the renovation starts).

At 4:30pm, I left the office with the permit. It is really an exhausted day!